Fallen Head Over Heels @ 6:19 PM;


well, its my own fault anyway.
i am so impatient i know.
but i can't help it you know.
been like that since young.

i seriously thought you went for another girl.
i was so afraid that i would lose you.
but all is fine now.
kan you?
loves.

yay!
dian has been listening and trying to understand.
its good because for two years in ahmad ibrahim,
all i do is slack in class.
i didn't study a single thing.
and thats why its hard for me now in Sec Three.
i don't have all my basics seh.
and i don't know how to write a history essay.
i mean the structure.
suckos.

but then,
now i actually try to do things!
except i don't have ss textbook.
so now i can't do my essays.
and i don't know how to do my history essay,
because i can't find the answer in the textbook .
and i am super stress with so many things to memorise.

if i didn't actually waste my time in lower sec slacking,
maybe i could have actually learn all my basics.
like memorising some simple things for chemistry.
or learning my basic in maths.

so now its kinda hard for me.
but i am so doing great!
so i'm actually happy.
i just have to start memorising the formulas in
chemistry,physics,amaths,emaths..
and maybe theres more?

ohh and i better start paying attention during mr ho's class.
but its just that i always start to drift away.
but he is interesting,
although mr saravanan is really great.

and i really rindu miss chen.
i want her to come back teach.

but nevermind,
miss zuraidah is okay.

i think i have all the good teachers around me lah.
so the choice is actually up to me.
if i want to listen , or not.
usually i won't listen because i always feel sleepy.

but i will try my best!
really!

am i really mean and selfish?
but i really miss it when it was just the three of us,
or rather it could be better with only the two of us.
maybe i won't ever be happy with the other species.
maybe thats why i can understand better,
or last longer,
when the other species is abit softer,
just like this species, unlike the other.
so anyway,
let things just take its place.
i really just want to concentrate on my studies.
i want to work harder,
i want to feel proud and happy when i receive my results.

i want to be who i am in the past.
and throw away all the bad memories.
really.

i want to know how it feels like,
when you studied so hard,
and get good results in return.
maybe its like receiving your pay,
after working hard.

eh anyway,
my computer spoil.
because of my brother lah.
he loves downloading things in the comp.
and because the downloads take hours,
or maybe days,
he would leave the computer on.
and just turn the screen off.

imagine the bill .
haish,
so irresponsible.
i often laugh when he thinks he is so in charge.
well he only wants money money money.
and he doesn't work for it .
i think he wants it to come the easy way,
wait till one day it rains money.

and so i really don't like him that much.,
and because of many more other reasons.
you know why right shahril .


okay i'm just gonna end this off easily.
bubbye.
=)

Fallen Head Over Heels @ 11:51 PM;


did i really hurt and bastard many guys ?

was i really a playgal ?

does it count ?
i bastard only playboys ,
who i know don't really love me ?
yea yea ?

okay bye .
andd andd andd wait !

shahril , you know i really love you right ?
and i won't go rightt ?

Fallen Head Over Heels @ 11:11 PM;


let it be my turn , to win some or learn some .
pleaseee ?




today , didn't go to school .
because of some family problem .
and shahril did not go either .
because he woke up late .
hey , what will mr ong say when he finds out ?
you know what he might say or ape2 lah kan ?
sorry mr ong , for talking about you .

said that , cuz you never know if teachers are reading the blog or what .

erm,
yeah back to my family probs .
yeah i was so emo in the morning .
ran away to the 12th floor in the morning ,
around 630am , came back around don't know what .
i was like crying like a little baby ..
cry nonstop .
while trying to finish up my english book .
was just pretending , cuz some ppl from that floor confirm going out to work/school.
yeahh cry cry cry ...
and then went home .
uncle ask ,
'kau tak gi skola ehk'
i said 'tak' . without even looking at him .
and continued crying in my bed .
cried myself to sleep .
and my eyes swollen .
at three woke up .
and read book .
because i didn;t want to go out of my room .
my room is like the only safest place ever .
its where i run to when i'm afraid , of anything .
but yeah , i still won't let the dark get me ,
no matter where ,
i sleep with the ceiling light on .
to hell with saving electricity ,
i need lights .
or again i'll cry ./


yeah yeah yeah!
i'm a cry baby !
but what can i do ?????
i'm not strong ?
i'm different so what .
i'm acting like a small kid ? cry cry all the time ,
well i'm farting hell not acting .
and i blarty hell don't want to attract attention .
thats why i prefer not go to school .
cuz i'm worried i won't be able to concentrate ,
and then suddenly cry .

shiiiiiuuuuulll lah !
cry in public ,
so malu tauuu .
later don't know where to put my face .

so today is an emo tuesday .
and i havent finish up the script .
sorry !

what am i suppose to say to teacher ?

dear mrs heng ,
i am sorry to inform you that my daughter , dian binte roseli , of class 3e1 was absent from school today because she was not feeling well. i hope you could excuse her from school . thank you for you cooperation .

yours sincerely,
my mom's signature and her phone number .

yarh she writes the same thing all the time .
cuz her english bad .

haish .
i think i wanna watch movie awhile .

okay bye .

Fallen Head Over Heels @ 3:24 AM;

Fallen Head Over Heels @ 2:55 AM;


GosH ! 2dae was lyk sO damn tired seY in the morning...
i wokE up in the morning aT 6+ buT i weNT to slp..
den mY dad wOke me up..
buT den again i wenT baCk to slp..Haha!

in the enD i was laTe for skul by a few mins..daRn!
ouh Ya..the clerk in skul all lazY bum ass seY..
i was onli laTe for the 2nd tym buT theY puT iT as 3rd tym..
nw i think mR ong gng loOk for me 1st thing in the morning..gahh!!

speakiNG of mr onG, Hahaha! i saw his pics during morning assembly..HAha!
oMg ! funnY seY when he young old tyms..Hahaha! biG head buT small bodY buT now alermak!

Hmm..me n wasiF(atikah's bf), was laughing at iT seY..Hahaha! jahat ryte kiter..Hahaha
oUH Ya, baCK to the clerk..u noe wad theY ask me do for them..when i was hvin my P.E, i was senT to office dunnO for wad reasoN..den all of a sudden she ask me whether i'm laTe or nOT..in facT in the morning i was looKing at her n she was looKing at me..den she dun believe..she thought i
nvr report to skul..sO she ask me to takE my green slip n show her to prove tat i repoRted late..
sO i went baCk to clasS, toOk my green slip n go down to office..

she sae oK..den she ask me to go baCk up n ask one of my classmaTes whether he was late or noT..
den i wenT baCk to class for 2nd tym to ask my fren..aft he sae no, i wenT back to the office juz to tell
the clerk, my fren saE "no"..grrr! den i had to go baCk again To my clasS n hv lessoN..penaT seY !!

Hmm..aft one week..2dae was my 1st tym i was veri attentive in class !! fuyO ! Haha..dunno y all of a sudden in the mood of studYing seY..

Ouh Ya ! when i walk pass her class, she loOk so pale n reali tired seY..OMg ! hope she'z fine..aft skul, i wenT to myt her n we had lunch 2gther ! mEe soTo pedas pedas !! hhahah! both of us were sweating all over..Hahaha! den we went to repoRt to detention room..aft tat, i wenT to srp class and she wenT to myt her frenz n oso To faridah's hm..Hahaha! besT seY she !! can hv fun buT i cnT ..darn !

at niTe i wenT to fetch her cuz her ezlink caRd gng finish..den i help her topup..


sorie dear abt juz now...
sorie i made uu angrY..

I'm still fighting. Hope you will wait. Please.


Is to love you like how I used to And to be with you the way we were back in 2008.


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