EighteenJanuary

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Fallen Head Over Heels @ 6:19 PM;

well, its my own fault anyway.
i am so impatient i know.
but i can't help it you know.
been like that since young.

i seriously thought you went for another girl.
i was so afraid that i would lose you.
but all is fine now.
kan you?
loves.

yay!
dian has been listening and trying to understand.
its good because for two years in ahmad ibrahim,
all i do is slack in class.
i didn't study a single thing.
and thats why its hard for me now in Sec Three.
i don't have all my basics seh.
and i don't know how to write a history essay.
i mean the structure.
suckos.

but then,
now i actually try to do things!
except i don't have ss textbook.
so now i can't do my essays.
and i don't know how to do my history essay,
because i can't find the answer in the textbook .
and i am super stress with so many things to memorise.

if i didn't actually waste my time in lower sec slacking,
maybe i could have actually learn all my basics.
like memorising some simple things for chemistry.
or learning my basic in maths.

so now its kinda hard for me.
but i am so doing great!
so i'm actually happy.
i just have to start memorising the formulas in
chemistry,physics,amaths,emaths..
and maybe theres more?

ohh and i better start paying attention during mr ho's class.
but its just that i always start to drift away.
but he is interesting,
although mr saravanan is really great.

and i really rindu miss chen.
i want her to come back teach.

but nevermind,
miss zuraidah is okay.

i think i have all the good teachers around me lah.
so the choice is actually up to me.
if i want to listen , or not.
usually i won't listen because i always feel sleepy.

but i will try my best!
really!

am i really mean and selfish?
but i really miss it when it was just the three of us,
or rather it could be better with only the two of us.
maybe i won't ever be happy with the other species.
maybe thats why i can understand better,
or last longer,
when the other species is abit softer,
just like this species, unlike the other.
so anyway,
let things just take its place.
i really just want to concentrate on my studies.
i want to work harder,
i want to feel proud and happy when i receive my results.

i want to be who i am in the past.
and throw away all the bad memories.
really.

i want to know how it feels like,
when you studied so hard,
and get good results in return.
maybe its like receiving your pay,
after working hard.

eh anyway,
my computer spoil.
because of my brother lah.
he loves downloading things in the comp.
and because the downloads take hours,
or maybe days,
he would leave the computer on.
and just turn the screen off.

imagine the bill .
haish,
so irresponsible.
i often laugh when he thinks he is so in charge.
well he only wants money money money.
and he doesn't work for it .
i think he wants it to come the easy way,
wait till one day it rains money.

and so i really don't like him that much.,
and because of many more other reasons.
you know why right shahril .

okay i'm just gonna end this off easily.
bubbye.
=)