Monday, March 8, 2010
Fallen Head Over Heels @ 4:28 PM;
You know I can't live without you.I'm sorry I mistreated you, pretty baby.I'm sorry I misleaded you, pretty baby.I'm sorry that I hurt you, pretty baby.All I need to know is...Can you take me back?
Fallen Head Over Heels @ 7:22 AM;
I don't know what I want. Its like having a war within me. I thought I loved him. Deep inside me, I know I love him. Its there. That's the reason I still want to be with him. But this love towards him, comes from the girl about 9 months ago. This perfectionist who want everything to be perfect, especially when it comes to him. And the reason, she cared and she loved him. Buuut, then things started to change the moment he left her.
When they were together, she thought, wow.. It's a fairytale. She had a Prince Charming, and she believed her story would have a happy ending. She believed so much that the relationship was strong, that nothing could bring it down. The disappointment that she felt when the relationship failed was overwhelming.. Everything hurts, her heart and her ego too. Yeahhh, she had an ego toooo. Evil witch came swooping, and grabbed Prince Charming as soon as she knew he was single. And under the spell of the evil witch, who was extremely ugly and had so many moles on her face, which are just plain ugly, and she thinks she's so hot, gofuckyeahselfbitch. ohh yeah, under the spell of the evil witch, he got hooked and decided to choose the evil witch over his sexy hot awesome ex gf. HOW SAD. KALAH KERANA TAIK LALAT.
And then she met some Jerks, one sexy hot jerk, one cute funny jerk, some more weird jerks, some jerks she just can't remember. and thats how she became me! yes me. these jerks has turned me into a different person. firstly, the relationship that i thought would never ever fail, and the boy that i really2 loved has run away, with an ugly bitch witch, so yeah, i don't believe in relationships anymore. i knew they would never last. and i knew theres no point. so i started to learn to just fling around, and have fun. and this fun, has got me addicted. addicted to just play around with some jerk, and play them before they play me.
so yeah, back to this. along the way, i lost my feeling of love towards boy. i no longer know how to love a boy. all i feel towards them uh, time to play them, time to kill their hearts. i no longer feel a thing for them.
and then Prince Charming came back.
she started to jump with joy, she started to feel all happiness overwhelming her. that small spark of love that came from her, started shooting out, ooozing everywhere, even i started to forgive and just love him back.. it went great, but then... i realise im not sure what i want actually. there was no way i would leave him, i could feel that love deeeeep down inside me. the old love that we had. the love that wasnt suppose to die... but then, i don't know why, at times i feel cold, like i had no feeling. like i dont care. like all i care is me. its all about me..
that's when i knew i've changed. and because i have changed, writing this post is like taking some of my time. im such a bitch, and im awesome. i just wish i could turn time back to mid 2009. and change everytime. go agaisnt the time off. why did i fucking agree to the time off i don't know. but yeahh, time off never works.. and he fell in love with some other girl. and it hurts, to be pushed away..
"why can't we be back together"
"i'm with
ugly witch bitch"nice. i lost. and yeaaaah, no wonder i seemed like i had no ego, i bottled ego up, and now its all coming out and yea, fuckyeabitch, so many bastards out there you had to steal mine, tsk, such a pity both of you didnt die in a crash.
YOU KNOW WHAT. I JUST HATE THE BOTH OF YOU. FUCKYEABASTARD,FUCKYEABITCH.