Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Fallen Head Over Heels @ 2:32 AM;
Dear Shahril Shafii,
I am really sorry. I'm really being selfish. I want you, but.... I don't know if I still love you. What I really want right now, is to love you like how I used to. I swear, I really miss the past. I miss what we had. I miss 2008. That whole year, it was just me and you. And I really miss you. I believed so much that what we had was a fairytale. I believed we had a happy ending. "And they lived happily forever and ever." But after what happened, everything was crushed. My feelings too. It just faded slowly. And I hate that its gone. I want to be happy again, like how we were, when the world revolves only around me and you. When nothing else mattered as long as we were together.
I know why my feelings faded. It was too long. I thought I had lost you. I accepted that I lost you, and I slowly got used to this fact that you were no longer mine. I let you go. And even after you told me how you still loved me while you were with her and that you haven't got over me, I already spent a long time with a little hatred towards you in me. I hated you for doing that to me. I was in agony. Really.
I don't know what I want right now. Give me time. Please?
I want to love you again. I really want to. I miss you so much.Dee~